Well things are a bit tough right now. I won't go in to details but I can't sleep at the moment and I just can't get my mind clear. I have been going through life with a bit of optimism and regret and a feeling of loneliness and that I will soon be left behind in life. There is nothing I can do now but wait and see how it will turn out. I just had a thought about life that I thought I should bring up. A few of my friends are having relationship problems and some are having suicide and cutting problems (you know who you are and this is for you) I am just getting a bit tired of people coming to me and not learning.

*My thoughts on everything*
Life is hard, you need to get through it but it takes work. "To desire is to suffer" if you desire too much you will begin to suffer from it. If you want to live a better life you need to let go of desires. You can decide how you want to live as long as you are happy but if happiness means hurting your self or others then you should think if the way you are living your life is the right way. You should help others in need but not at the cost of your happiness in life. Love is a powerful thing, it has a deep meaning to some and little to others. You need to embrace love the way it comes to you. Relationships can be tough (I know) but it doesn't mean the end after a hard time. If you both care for one another and have a feeling of wanting to be near and want to be with the other person you are great. Cutting as we all know is bad but, it doesn't mean the end of life. You need to think of what you are doing and realize that there is a better way to get over your problems. Ask friends for help when you need it. Friends help when they are in trouble and are in a time of need. No body should get left behind in there time of need. We all need to see the light in life and don't let the roller coster that is life take us on a ride that will never return. Have it be a great and thrilling time in your life!

I hope you all can understand my feelings at this time. I was on youtube and my GF favorited a video that had a song called "Shattered" and it made me think of all this that was going on. I might be making a AMV with it soon to show these feelings.

I just hope that I can give support to those who need it and I could get the support I need.